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23 July 2009 @ 09:58 pm
there hasn't been a chance for me to put a full stop to what's happening to me this few months, so a tribute to that, i shall have none for this entry
lets see where shall i start, about 4 months ago, i received a letter to tell me that i got selected to be part of national youth council's 14th Singapore-Malaysia Youth Camp(SMYC) which is a major stepping stone for me to build up my portfolio and of course to develop myself even further, as proud and boastful this may sound, i thinking i am born to doing all this!
when i'm in, I'M ALL IN FOR IT, after being part of the camp, i got another call, telling me i have been nominated to be the assistant youth leader for the singapore contingent!!! only god knew how delighted, surprised and overjoyed to be given another opportunity
the camp was an emotional rollercoaster that got me growing day after day and i was blessed to have people whom i trust so much to be alongside with me during the storm
shant dwell so much about what happened during the camp but in a nutshell, it was hell of a good time
did i mentioned that on the same day of SMYC was also the day my sister, my one and only sister got engaged? yes she did, it was a family affair that was just great, everything was just the way we planned it to be
i'm already thinking of how would it all be like when they tie the knot next year, and rumours had it that IT'S GONNA BE HELD ON MY BIRTHDAY
yes just so you know, my brother got married on my mom's birthday, now my sister is getting married on mine, and i am by default suppose to hold mine on my dad's! HAHA, yes i have got a such a family :)
anyway, this is gonna be the last entry before another on comes in, which i cant promise when exactly, whatever it is, the week's to come is wayyyy to good to be true
1st, M DINIY D HAMZAH IS FLYING OF TO KOREA NEXT THURSDAY FOR TWO EFFING WEEKS for another youth forum/cultural exchange programme - Youth for Asia's Future - there's gonna be delegations from china, india, mongolia, japan, korea, and many many many more!!
i swear, i never thought such a day would come, and to top it off, it's an all expense paid for!! yes hotel flight transport - ALL OF IT, the only thing i need to worry about it my personal expenses, how much better can it get huh?
i am going to celebrate national day in seoul, hahaha! YAY!
2nd, two days after i arrive home, i've been invited to attend the national day rally!! hahaha to be honest, i think of the 19 years of my life , i've only watched it twice! oh well, we shall see to it
THATS IT! GOOD NIGHT DEAR WORLD!
god life is great and i cant ask for more (well maybe a lil more) HAHAH
lets see where shall i start, about 4 months ago, i received a letter to tell me that i got selected to be part of national youth council's 14th Singapore-Malaysia Youth Camp(SMYC) which is a major stepping stone for me to build up my portfolio and of course to develop myself even further, as proud and boastful this may sound, i thinking i am born to doing all this!
when i'm in, I'M ALL IN FOR IT, after being part of the camp, i got another call, telling me i have been nominated to be the assistant youth leader for the singapore contingent!!! only god knew how delighted, surprised and overjoyed to be given another opportunity
the camp was an emotional rollercoaster that got me growing day after day and i was blessed to have people whom i trust so much to be alongside with me during the storm
shant dwell so much about what happened during the camp but in a nutshell, it was hell of a good time
did i mentioned that on the same day of SMYC was also the day my sister, my one and only sister got engaged? yes she did, it was a family affair that was just great, everything was just the way we planned it to be
i'm already thinking of how would it all be like when they tie the knot next year, and rumours had it that IT'S GONNA BE HELD ON MY BIRTHDAY
yes just so you know, my brother got married on my mom's birthday, now my sister is getting married on mine, and i am by default suppose to hold mine on my dad's! HAHA, yes i have got a such a family :)
anyway, this is gonna be the last entry before another on comes in, which i cant promise when exactly, whatever it is, the week's to come is wayyyy to good to be true
1st, M DINIY D HAMZAH IS FLYING OF TO KOREA NEXT THURSDAY FOR TWO EFFING WEEKS for another youth forum/cultural exchange programme - Youth for Asia's Future - there's gonna be delegations from china, india, mongolia, japan, korea, and many many many more!!
i swear, i never thought such a day would come, and to top it off, it's an all expense paid for!! yes hotel flight transport - ALL OF IT, the only thing i need to worry about it my personal expenses, how much better can it get huh?
i am going to celebrate national day in seoul, hahaha! YAY!
2nd, two days after i arrive home, i've been invited to attend the national day rally!! hahaha to be honest, i think of the 19 years of my life , i've only watched it twice! oh well, we shall see to it
THATS IT! GOOD NIGHT DEAR WORLD!
god life is great and i cant ask for more (well maybe a lil more) HAHAH
Current Music: dancing in the moonlight - toploader
29 June 2009 @ 01:42 am
i have neglected lj for a long long while. i'll find one day, and it shall be a long update on the singapore-malaysia youth camp and what went on after the camp+ my dear sister's engagement. :) tee hee..
02 June 2009 @ 11:57 pm
hello world. to the ones who bothers to read, i thank you.
i've got question that has been lingering for awhile now.
*the ones underlined are just my thoughts.
what does it mean to love someone?
1. is it to the extent of wanting to be a convert?
then again, isn't religion one thing that you should embrace based on your believe and for the love of the religion and not for the sake of someone you love?
2. seeing your other half everyday and night?
where is the line drawn to decide what the time left for your friends and family?
3. checking up on them every hour?
clingy? or this is just plain romantic? how long can it really last like this before it actually becomes annoying? this is reporting or updating? i truly hope it is the latter or course.
4. have to like their friend?
the relationship is surely just about your and him/her right? noone else should matter. shouldn't it?
5. make sure that your friends like them?
does it really matter that your friends might not like your partner? or do they have to like your significant other?
6.what does it mean to love someone?
"...to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; from this day forward until death do us part..."
beats me.
i've got question that has been lingering for awhile now.
*the ones underlined are just my thoughts.
what does it mean to love someone?
1. is it to the extent of wanting to be a convert?
then again, isn't religion one thing that you should embrace based on your believe and for the love of the religion and not for the sake of someone you love?
2. seeing your other half everyday and night?
where is the line drawn to decide what the time left for your friends and family?
3. checking up on them every hour?
clingy? or this is just plain romantic? how long can it really last like this before it actually becomes annoying? this is reporting or updating? i truly hope it is the latter or course.
4. have to like their friend?
the relationship is surely just about your and him/her right? noone else should matter. shouldn't it?
5. make sure that your friends like them?
does it really matter that your friends might not like your partner? or do they have to like your significant other?
6.what does it mean to love someone?
"...to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; from this day forward until death do us part..."
beats me.
Current Music: wonderful- big bang!
25 March 2009 @ 02:39 pm
"if a little dream is dangerous, the cure for it is not to dream less but to dream more, to dream all the time."
marcel proust
marcel proust
23 March 2009 @ 12:17 pm
(this is ugly, what's with lj? why is it soo pixelated? - click on picture for an enlarged view)
Current Location: ffth
15 March 2009 @ 12:52 am
bangkok was suuuupppperrrr gooodd. i wanna go back. thats all. :)
ahhhh.... bangkok.....
ahhhh.... bangkok.....
02 March 2009 @ 10:04 pm
1. Describe me in one word... just one single word.
2. Leave your word in a comment before looking at what words others have used.
3. Then copy and paste this to your journal to find out how people will describe you when limited to one word.
2. Leave your word in a comment before looking at what words others have used.
3. Then copy and paste this to your journal to find out how people will describe you when limited to one word.
23 February 2009 @ 10:10 pm
| What is your True Fear? Your Result: Looked down on You have a very high self image. You're the kind of person that loves being in the center of attention. You're very outgoing, and outspoken. You also always have to look you're best. Whether going out, or just hanging out with the girls if you're not looking great you're not happy. You're a natural born leader, and love when people look up to you. You're worst fear is that someone won't like you, or look up to you. If someone criticized or critiqued you to the point that people stopped wanting to hang around you, or began thinking less of you that would be your worst nightmare. You secretly really want to be liked, respected and appreciated by others. A good way to make sure that people have a positive view of you is to consider their thoughts and feelings also. | |
| Disappointment | |
| Commitment | |
| Being Alone | |
| Where Your life is Going | |
| Losing Someone | |
| Death | |
| What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz | |
okayy, i think this whole quiz is creepy. haha!
13 February 2009 @ 07:19 pm
it's ironic how much i wanted school to end so bad but now that it has ended, i already miss it. like seriously. with complete freedom and time to practically do anything anytime is not kicking in. yes, the first few weeks was alright cause i was working and earning just enough bucks for the short batam trip (that reminds me, fiqah hasnt passed them). but when all this is over, i'm back to square one! i literally got nothing to so.
one thing that i've kept myself busy with would be with the university applications that can be a huge drag. long application process, questions to answer. so freaking long! up till now, i dont get why we should pay $10/15 bucks just ti get our applications "accepted"! what's the differnece between paying the application fees and bribery? NOTHING! well it seemed like nothing. we have to pay to get our applications read. wthh! then i wonder, what do they do with the money that we paid, use them for future student developments?!
next on my "101-minus-99-things-to-do", prepare my portfolio since i am trying to enter NTU's ADM. haha! i can only imagine how my portfolio's gonna look like. and then the next thing to do is to finish up Jodi Picoult's Changing Hearts. SERIOUSLY, i need to like speed up when it comes to reading books, i can take forever i tell you. oh well, i got lots of time anyway. HAHA i can see serene and babe rolling their eyes when reading this. LADIES, I CAN AFFORD THE TIME YOU SEE!
dear world, let's take a strole down... some lane. i am dreading nothing.
one thing that i've kept myself busy with would be with the university applications that can be a huge drag. long application process, questions to answer. so freaking long! up till now, i dont get why we should pay $10/15 bucks just ti get our applications "accepted"! what's the differnece between paying the application fees and bribery? NOTHING! well it seemed like nothing. we have to pay to get our applications read. wthh! then i wonder, what do they do with the money that we paid, use them for future student developments?!
next on my "101-minus-99-things-to-do", prepare my portfolio since i am trying to enter NTU's ADM. haha! i can only imagine how my portfolio's gonna look like. and then the next thing to do is to finish up Jodi Picoult's Changing Hearts. SERIOUSLY, i need to like speed up when it comes to reading books, i can take forever i tell you. oh well, i got lots of time anyway. HAHA i can see serene and babe rolling their eyes when reading this. LADIES, I CAN AFFORD THE TIME YOU SEE!
dear world, let's take a strole down... some lane. i am dreading nothing.
03 January 2009 @ 04:23 pm
lets try and complete the resolutions made in '08 first! how 'bout that?
( Xmas + Food Hunt + Countdown )
26 December 2008 @ 02:55 pm
i'm trying to absorb the fact that in about a month, i'm a graduate of a diploma! i am free from RP, i am free of the 8-4pm time routine, yess! i am free!! well if you think about it, it's not complete freedom, the gates which reads "WELCOME TO PULAU TEKONG", and 2 years of National Service awaits me! but for now, WHO CARES!?
VIETNAM HERE WE COME!! :):)
VIETNAM HERE WE COME!! :):)
08 December 2008 @ 01:54 am
adapted form rinebabe's
Last Words...
"The first thing that struck me about you was your smile. It was a smile that captured people. And it was a smile from within your whole being.
Last Words...
"The first thing that struck me about you was your smile. It was a smile that captured people. And it was a smile from within your whole being.
After meeting you that day, I asked Sandy: "Who's the babe?"
It was another day at Spinelli when I bumped into you and I spoke to you and said we should have lunch together. You probably asked yourself why the first lunch I suggested was at this place, San Marco, at the Fullerton. It was kind of odd for a first lunch.
I guess we went for our first date on an office lunch, during lunch hour. Your best attribute was that there was so much love about you.
A selfless love.
It was this love that really struck me about you. You could be incredibly stubborn at times and incredibly feisty. And you knew what you wanted.
You were very much your own person.
But you also wanted to make people happy, buying drinks for them, to make sure they had a good time.
You gave your all to people.
Once people got to know you, they would realise what a precious gem you were. I am 37. You were 28.
I am nine years older than you. And when I met you, I knew I wanted to marry you. I waited all my life to find you. I took you to the Maldives in 2006, just eight months after getting to know you. And I proposed to you there. On the very night we landed. I guess I couldnt wait. You claimed you knew I was up to something because I was asking you leading questions, like if you were happy with me.
Being the lawyer, you were quite sharp and knew before I proposed. We were at the villa at the Banyan Tree in the Maldives at midnight. Everything was quiet under the beautiful moonlit night. That's when I asked you to be my wife.
You were very happy to say 'yes', and you cried. You wanted a wedding in Bali. And we really had a beautiful wedding. This year, we went to Melbourne and returned on 21 Nov. We met friends there and had a great time. We were both Kylie Minogue fans and we went to her concert here, the night before you left for Mumbai.
Even though you were that much younger than me, you liked old things, like me.
In the last few weeks of our relationship, it was truly the best moments of my life. As newlyweds, we had minor teething problems. We had the occasional tiff. And a few months ago, we had a really good heart-to-heart talk. I told you it looked like I had my demands and because I wanted you, but because I needed you.
You were really my entire life.
In your orbituary, I said: "My life has no meaning and no purpose."
That's what I mean right now.
Everything I did, I did for you. My whole life really revolved around you.
You were truly the meaning of my life.
A few months ago, I explained to you that you were not something that was nice to have around.
You were what I needed.
You were a part of me.
The last few weeks of your life with me were really, really truly wonderful. You would have the most beautiful smile for me when you got home. It was truly, truly fantastic.
Marriage was work, we all knew that.
We had achieved some new level in our relationship.
I was incredibly happy. That's why it's even harder for me to talk about it. I didnt even want you to get wet in the rain. I wanted to make your life as smooth as possible. Needless to say, being unable to protect you, there's nothing to really say about that.
The day you left for Mumbai, we had to be at the airport by 5.45am. Your flight was after 7am. You had to give a talk in Mumbai and you were nervous about it. You went through your whole talk with me at the departure hall. And I said your speech had substance and that you would charm them.
You reached Mumbai safely and you messaged me. Then came your message; that you had heard gunshots during dinner.
A few messages and phone calls and many agonising hours later, you were gone.
You were so brave.
I could talk for hours about you.
Because, basically, you were a wonderful human being. Before I came back to Singapore, I did not know how I was going to carry on. I did not pray after what had happened.
But when we had the first prayer session for you on Monday night, that pain dulled.
God is somehow watching over me. Right now, it's one day at a time. There's no planning, no thinking of tomorrow.
It's going to be very hard. I know you want me to live my life. Whether I can do it or not, that's what my friends and family are for.
Their love, which they are pushing in my direction, is helping me push aside my grief for awhile. I remember my last words to you: "I love you very much."
And those were your last words to me too.
I want people to know what a wonderful person you were.
The babe I had waited for my whole life."
in memory of Lo Hwei Yen, to the stranger we have come to know.
>>>
Composed, the corporate counsel recounted their conversation.
“In a steady voice she was talking to me, and, reacting to her, I was trying to remain calm as well. Only in her very last sentence did she say, “Please tell them to hurry up.”
“That was when I couldn’t really take it. I told her I loved her so very much, and she said the same thing. Those were the last words,” he said, voice wavering and eyes welling up.
That was their fourth, and last, telephone conversation in seven hours, at about 6am on Thursday.
Agonising hours later, at about 9.35pm, he would identify her body, feet clad in bedroom slippers, on the 19th floor of Mumbai’s Oberoi Trident Hotel.
Accompanied by officials from the Ministry of Foreign Affairs (MFA), he was led up the steps of the pitch-black hotel to where Ms Lo’s body lay.
“I was able to touch her cheek,” he said. “She still looked very beautiful.”
<<<
in memory of Lo Hwei Yen, to the stranger we have come to know.
23 November 2008 @ 05:06 pm
THRILLING? - YES
FUN? - YES
WOULD I DO IT AGAIN? - HAHAHAHAH! MAYYYYBE?
AND AFTER THAT I SINNED AGAIN ON SATURDAY.
I SPLURGED ON A SHOE WHICH COST ME A BOMB. $139 FOR A FREAKING SHOE - IT'S furrMUSE BY THE WAY. OKAY NEVERMIND. I'M HAPPY.
NOW I NEED TO BUY A PROPER SHOE RACK TO PUT MY SHOES. TSK TSK TSK.
OKAY BYE! HAPPY SINNING!
okay i am joking.
Current Mood: 
ecstatic
ecstatic12 November 2008 @ 09:39 pm
dear best friend,
i miss you, i really do.
i do, i do, i do.
please come back. or maybe not.
i miss you, i really do.
i do, i do, i do.
please come back. or maybe not.
Current Mood: 
gloomy
gloomyCurrent Music: sunset glow - bb
20 October 2008 @ 01:29 pm
Look who's just turned 19!
( HARPIE BUFDAY )
SEE THE GIRLS BEHIND ME!?!? THE LIL GIRLS!? they are bloody irritating. they were practically talking alllllllllllll the way form the start to the end! scream an scream and scream. i swear i would have wanted to drag them out form the tram and just dump them some where else! look at cyn's fingers! haha 
we headed for the creatures of the night show which would be the whole highlight of my virgin trip considering that the bloody irritating girls made the tram ride an unforgettable one. seriously!
while we made our own rounds, LOOK AT WHAT THE HELL THEY HUNG UP ON THE TREE!?? !@#$%^ HAHAHA
OHH WELL.
d family portrait! haha the only picture after what 7 years that ALL of us are in?! haha
oh yes, especially a big huge thank you for serene for getting us the tickets! and ian taking nights out! :):)
yes yes, my sister, cousin and i went bonkers. as usual. it's in the blood you see.AHH, I SHALL update again when i've got my presents from them! haha
October 26th
and so i decided to follow my sister and her friends to Sentosa in the morning before heading for picnic (cindy's birthday) in the afternoon. the usual people were around. on the 24th, being the thick-skin-ed me told Zahri & Shakir (both of whom are my sister's good friend) that it was my birthday and i would lovee to get something! HAHAH which was meant to be a joke/passing remark! AND THEY TOOK IT SERIOUSLY! ahhh well, no loss for me eh, well more of a gain eh, i got myself a agnes b. wallet. YES AN AGNES B. WALLET. more of a card holder actually, but who cares!?.
ahhh, how rewarding can my 19th birthday is. psstt! my sis got me an ipod nano but there's a twist, i dont have a clue what colour it is and what is engraved on the back of it. will updae again soon!
CHEERRRSS!!
OKAY LJ IS BEING AN ASS, I DUNO AND CANNOT BE BOTHERED WITH THE LJ-CUTS.good bye
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( HARPIE BUFDAY )
this was the GLOW-IN-THE-DARK specs outline that we got from the shop there which cost 4BUCKS each, and we realize that each of us would have one stick which is bright and another is dimmer than the other. SHIT LOR!
she is the BEST ONE EVER!
we headed for the creatures of the night show which would be the whole highlight of my virgin trip considering that the bloody irritating girls made the tram ride an unforgettable one. seriously!
while we made our own rounds, LOOK AT WHAT THE HELL THEY HUNG UP ON THE TREE!?? !@#$%^ HAHAHA
OHH WELL.
d family portrait! haha the only picture after what 7 years that ALL of us are in?! haha
oh yes, especially a big huge thank you for serene for getting us the tickets! and ian taking nights out! :):)
October 22nd
out with jel, kaile, bin, des & cheryl. HOHO, we had the something similiar to the manhattan fish market. the batter on the fish seemed llike free! SO MUCH BATTER on a small fish! ohh well.
AND THEN! i just had to go to the toilet, and when i came back, my seat was missing! haha, and underneath the table it was, WITH A BOX ON IT! hahaha yes yes, i did the whole acting of "er, what's this? for me? HAHAH" yes i am an actor.
they made me guess what was inside. HAHAH. i blurted out whatever i could think of. BUT NONE OF WHICH I MENTIONED was right! so here it is,
THE FREAKING DOPOD 838PRO i wanted! hahahaha i couldnt stop smiling i tell you.
THANK YOU MUCH MUCH once again.
October 24th
after school, i headed over to Food From the Heart where i volunteer as an events and admin assistant. oh it's where my sister works at btw. my dear cousin maya was in to help for the preparation for an upcoming event. but anyohows, we headed over to mad jack over at dhoby ghaut for dinner. did i mentioned fiqah was missing in action for more than two freaking hours?! we tried to contact her since afternoon but neither her boyfriend nor her picked up their bloody phones, and when she contacted us, the first sentence she said was, "what the fuck do you guys want? i'm in the cinema!" wahhhh piangg, flare up eh! and she took close to 45 minutes just to get from orchard to dhoby ghaut. fiqah fiqah... tsk tsk tsk. peekchers do the talking.
out with jel, kaile, bin, des & cheryl. HOHO, we had the something similiar to the manhattan fish market. the batter on the fish seemed llike free! SO MUCH BATTER on a small fish! ohh well.
AND THEN! i just had to go to the toilet, and when i came back, my seat was missing! haha, and underneath the table it was, WITH A BOX ON IT! hahaha yes yes, i did the whole acting of "er, what's this? for me? HAHAH" yes i am an actor.
they made me guess what was inside. HAHAH. i blurted out whatever i could think of. BUT NONE OF WHICH I MENTIONED was right! so here it is,
THE FREAKING DOPOD 838PRO i wanted! hahahaha i couldnt stop smiling i tell you.
THANK YOU MUCH MUCH once again.
October 24th
after school, i headed over to Food From the Heart where i volunteer as an events and admin assistant. oh it's where my sister works at btw. my dear cousin maya was in to help for the preparation for an upcoming event. but anyohows, we headed over to mad jack over at dhoby ghaut for dinner. did i mentioned fiqah was missing in action for more than two freaking hours?! we tried to contact her since afternoon but neither her boyfriend nor her picked up their bloody phones, and when she contacted us, the first sentence she said was, "what the fuck do you guys want? i'm in the cinema!" wahhhh piangg, flare up eh! and she took close to 45 minutes just to get from orchard to dhoby ghaut. fiqah fiqah... tsk tsk tsk. peekchers do the talking.
yes yes, my sister, cousin and i went bonkers. as usual. it's in the blood you see.AHH, I SHALL update again when i've got my presents from them! haha
October 26th
and so i decided to follow my sister and her friends to Sentosa in the morning before heading for picnic (cindy's birthday) in the afternoon. the usual people were around. on the 24th, being the thick-skin-ed me told Zahri & Shakir (both of whom are my sister's good friend) that it was my birthday and i would lovee to get something! HAHAH which was meant to be a joke/passing remark! AND THEY TOOK IT SERIOUSLY! ahhh well, no loss for me eh, well more of a gain eh, i got myself a agnes b. wallet. YES AN AGNES B. WALLET. more of a card holder actually, but who cares!?.
ahhh, how rewarding can my 19th birthday is. psstt! my sis got me an ipod nano but there's a twist, i dont have a clue what colour it is and what is engraved on the back of it. will updae again soon!
CHEERRRSS!!
OKAY LJ IS BEING AN ASS, I DUNO AND CANNOT BE BOTHERED WITH THE LJ-CUTS.good bye
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Current Location: the black room
Current Mood: 
giggly
giggly06 October 2008 @ 11:27 pm
28 August 2008 @ 01:36 am
i thought i was the only one whole felt like this, oh i was wrong, there are others who feels much more. go on, read on, i'll update my part when i've gathered them all.
( i wish... )