i've been in the home team academy for say about 4 months or so already. this mean
1. i am there longer than i should
2. i've lost over 10kg = i am much buffer/slimmer/hotter than ever HAHAH
3. my ns life is shorten by 4 months = 2years = 24months = 24 - 4 = 20 months or so left!

i thinkk i've been coping pretty well in camp despite getting screwed real bad at times, with company mates being assholes to do lil lil stupid stuffs that get us all into deep shit, but i guess this are the things that would remain as a "memorable" experience in national service.

rumours had it that i'll be passing out on the 27th January 2010. after which i will know where i am posted to. went thru the first two stages of the police provost interview but failed to be shortlisted for the follow ups, but oh well, maybe it IS a belling in disguise somehow in which i will only get to know later on. 

drill test
I THOUGHT I COULD GET THE HIGHEST SCORE IN THIS FEILD(in ops fitness) with my experience in npcc! for god sake i WON the mini drill competition during the apec week. BUT NOO i wasnt good enough or so it seems! i'm placed 2nd, the first had a score of 79. what about me you'd asked. well A FREAKING 78! 2 more points i would beat get the top score! bummer. once again, taking it with a pinch a salt coupled with a pinch or pepper and a dash of vinegar! GOD I WAS SO DISSAPOINTED CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!?!?!  fml. HAHAH

one down many more tests to go. goodness.

ps: missy's back in sg! :0 grace ke's coming back in a month, mom and dad are in the airplane now coming back from arab where there were performing their pilgrimage! THE SAD PART IS, i wont be home to greet them! i have not seen them for a month and when they are back, i have to book in to camp. it would be another 4 days before i get to hug and embrace them both. :) whatever it is, i am glad that they're coming back, happier than ever i hope. sister and i (more of sister though) have been keeping the house pretty neat. hahah as we have promised mom and dad! :)




oh btw, i went over to mr tan hau teck's wake last night over at sengkang. yes, this man is a staff of RP and he was the advisor of student ambassador ig. he gave up and took his own life away. yes, he commited suicide. pretty sad actually to think that someone who is suppose to impact lives and impart knowledge to youths gave up on his own life . when we arrived, just as the aunty greeted us, she went,  "dont ever do something stupid like what he did, no problem cant be solve, everything can! and if you have a problem, share with someone close to you, dont bottle it up" make sense people? i guess so.

the end of the year is crawling in in pretty fast huh. they say when you're having fun, time seems to past by. i agree to that unfortunately. why cant it be the other way round? when you have loads of fun, let time past slower! let's begin. i think this year, prolly marks the most memorable,exciting,luckiest milestone, or rather MILESTONES in my life. trying my luck and signing up to join NYC's youth programmes was the one decision i made without consulting anyone and one that i am most proud of. i've mentioned about my past camp, the 14th Singapore-Malaysia Youth Camp 2009 no? SMYC was a camp that got the singaporeans so much closer to one another and boy i am glad to be part of it. the people i've met were amazing, esecially grace ke, charles chua and sally. couldnt ask for more.

stole this from ckris

there hasn't been a chance for me to put a full stop to what's happening to me this few months, so a tribute to that, i shall have none for this entry

lets see where shall i start, about 4 months ago, i received a letter to tell me that i got selected to be part of national youth council's 14th Singapore-Malaysia Youth Camp(SMYC) which is a major stepping stone for me to build up my portfolio and of course to develop myself even further, as proud and boastful this may sound, i thinking i am born to doing all this!

when i'm in, I'M ALL IN FOR IT, after being part of the camp, i got another call, telling me i have been nominated to be the assistant youth leader for the singapore contingent!!! only god knew how delighted, surprised and overjoyed to be given another opportunity

the camp was an emotional rollercoaster that got me growing day after day and i was blessed to have people whom i trust so much to be alongside with me during the storm

shant dwell so much about what happened during the camp but in a nutshell, it was hell of a good time

did i mentioned that on the same day of SMYC was also the day my sister, my one and only sister got engaged? yes she did, it was a family affair that was just great, everything was just the way we planned it to be

i'm already thinking of how would it all be like when they tie the knot next year, and rumours had it that IT'S GONNA BE HELD ON MY BIRTHDAY
yes just so you know, my brother got married on my mom's birthday, now my sister is getting married on mine, and i am by default suppose to hold mine on my dad's! HAHA, yes i have got a such a family :)

anyway, this is gonna be the last entry before another on comes in, which i cant promise when exactly, whatever it is, the week's to come is wayyyy to good to be true

1st, M DINIY D HAMZAH IS FLYING OF TO KOREA NEXT THURSDAY FOR TWO EFFING WEEKS for another youth forum/cultural exchange programme - Youth for Asia's Future - there's gonna be delegations from china, india, mongolia, japan, korea, and many many many more!!
i swear, i never thought such a day would come, and to top it off, it's an all expense paid for!! yes hotel flight transport - ALL OF IT, the only thing i need to worry about it my personal expenses, how much better can it get huh?

i am going to celebrate national day in seoul, hahaha! YAY!

2nd, two days after i arrive home, i've been invited to attend the national day rally!! hahaha to be honest, i think of the 19 years of my life , i've only watched it twice! oh well, we shall see to it


THATS IT! GOOD NIGHT DEAR WORLD!

god life is great and i cant ask for more (well maybe a lil more) HAHAH

i have neglected lj for a long long while. i'll find one day, and it shall be a long update on the singapore-malaysia youth camp and what went on after the camp+ my dear sister's engagement. :) tee hee..

hello world. to the ones who bothers to read, i thank you.

i've got question that has been lingering for awhile now.
*the ones underlined are just my thoughts.

what does it mean to love someone?

1. is it to the extent of wanting to be a convert?
then again, isn't religion one thing that you should embrace based on your believe and for the love of the religion and not for the sake of someone you love?
2. seeing your other half everyday and night?
where is the line drawn to decide what the time left for your friends and family?
3. checking up on them every hour?
clingy? or this is just plain romantic? how long can it really last like this before it actually becomes annoying? this is reporting or updating? i truly hope it is the latter or course.
4. have to like their friend?
the relationship is surely just about your and him/her right? noone else should matter. shouldn't it?
5. make sure that your friends like them?
does it really matter that your friends might not like your partner? or do they have to like your significant other?
6.what does it mean to love someone?
"...to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; from this day forward until death do us part..."


beats me.

bangkok was suuuupppperrrr gooodd. i wanna go back. thats all. :)

1. Describe me in one word... just one single word.
2. Leave your word in a comment before looking at what words others have used.
3. Then copy and paste this to your journal to find out how people will describe you when limited to one word.

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Looked down on   You have a very high self image. You're the kind of person that loves being in the center of attention. You're very outgoing, and outspoken. You also always have to look you're best. Whether going out, or just hanging out with the girls if you're not looking great you're not happy. You're a natural born leader, and love when people look up to you. You're worst fear is that someone won't like you, or look up to you. If someone criticized or critiqued you to the point that people stopped wanting to hang around you, or began thinking less of you that would be your worst nightmare. You secretly really want to be liked, respected and appreciated by others. A good way to make sure that people have a positive view of you is to consider their thoughts and feelings also.
Disappointment
Commitment
Being Alone
Where Your life is Going
Losing Someone
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

okayy, i think this whole quiz is creepy. haha!

     it's ironic how much i wanted school to end so bad but now that it has ended, i already miss it. like seriously. with complete freedom and time to practically do anything anytime is not kicking in. yes, the first few weeks was alright cause i was working and earning just enough bucks for the short batam trip (that reminds me, fiqah hasnt passed them). but when all this is over, i'm back to square one! i literally got nothing to so.

     one thing that i've kept myself busy with would be with the university applications that can be a huge drag. long application process, questions to answer. so freaking long! up till now, i dont get why we should pay $10/15 bucks just ti get our applications "accepted"!  what's the differnece between paying the application fees and bribery? NOTHING! well it seemed like nothing. we have to pay to get our applications read. wthh! then i wonder, what do they do with the money that we paid, use them for future student developments?! 

     next on my "101-minus-99-things-to-do", prepare my portfolio since i am trying to enter NTU's ADM. haha! i can only imagine how my portfolio's gonna look like. and then the next thing to do is to finish up Jodi Picoult's Changing Hearts. SERIOUSLY, i need to like speed up when it comes to reading books, i can take forever i tell you. oh well, i got lots of time anyway. HAHA i can see serene and babe rolling their eyes when reading this. LADIES, I CAN AFFORD THE TIME YOU SEE!

dear world, let's take a strole down... some lane. i am dreading nothing.

"why do people always get so uncomfortable with silence?"



( why? )

i'm trying to absorb the fact that in about a month, i'm a graduate of a diploma! i am free from RP, i am free of the 8-4pm time routine, yess! i am free!! well if you think about it, it's not complete freedom, the gates which reads "WELCOME TO PULAU TEKONG", and 2 years of National Service awaits me! but for now, WHO CARES!?

VIETNAM HERE WE COME!! :):)

I SINNED ON FRIDAY NIGHT. MY GOD FOR WHAT'S PROBABLY WORTH ABOUT $15-ISH EXCLUSIVE OF 10% SERVICE CHARGE! HAHAH. AND WE RAN AND RAN AND RAN!
THRILLING? - YES
FUN? - YES
WOULD I DO IT AGAIN? -  HAHAHAHAH! MAYYYYBE?

AND AFTER THAT I SINNED AGAIN ON SATURDAY.
I SPLURGED ON A SHOE WHICH COST ME A BOMB. $139 FOR A FREAKING SHOE - IT'S furrMUSE BY THE WAY. OKAY NEVERMIND. I'M HAPPY.

NOW I NEED TO BUY A PROPER SHOE RACK TO PUT MY SHOES. TSK TSK TSK.

OKAY BYE! HAPPY SINNING!

okay i am joking.

dear best friend,
i miss you, i really do.
i do, i do, i do.

please come back. or maybe not.

Look who's just turned 19!

( HARPIE BUFDAY ) SEE THE GIRLS BEHIND ME!?!? THE LIL GIRLS!? they are bloody irritating. they were practically talking alllllllllllll the way form the start to the end! scream an scream and scream. i swear i would have wanted to drag them out form the tram and just dump them some where else! look at cyn's fingers! haha </div>




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